Eco of WYD 2016 – From depression to Joy

pawelMy name is Pawel, I work in one of Warsaw hospital. I was grown up in catholic family, but all the time i

felt lack of something in my faith. For years I thought that my faith is weak, without any deep relation

with God. I didn’t have happiness in what I do, despite that I was in liturgy service, first as altar boy, later

as lector. After coming to Warsaw for studies I had hope that I will find community which will help me to

find happiness in my faith. I tried different communities, but I didn’t find any. I lost my happiness, I get

depression. I had hope that participate in WYD will change it. I wanted to be volunteer in Parish of St.

Jacob in Warsaw. Preparations for this event didn’t give me any chance for change of my situation. Week

before Days in Dioceses i get information that I have aneurism in my brain. At those moment I thought to

give up. I thought even about suicide. But finally I stayed as volunteer. First and second day I took people

from airport. Second day I took group of 30 people of Shalom community members from Israel. In city

bus youths took out their instruments and started to sing and dance. I didn’t know what should I do, I

felt a bit ashamed about this situation. I wanted to run away and not back. But God had another plan.

With the same group I walked for next 2 days. Their happiness started to have influence on me. I saw

real happiness of faith, something which I always looked for. As more people from Shalom I met as more

happiness was in me. I forgot about my problems. It was something which I have never felt in Poland, I

have never saw such happiness of evangelisation, such devoting for mission. I was with this people on

street evangelisation and I saw how they can take people for God! After Days in Dioceses I gone to

Cracow, where every afternoon I spent with Shalom community. It was so beautiful experience when I

saw how they can evangelise, share their happiness with others. Because of them I noticed which way in

my life I should go, what should I be devoted for. I want to show happiness in faith like them. For 2

weeks with Shalom community I didn’t have any moments of depression, I was full of joy. It was

something which I have not felt for years. Thinking about aneurism also gave me power, because I knew

that God still want me to live, so why I shouldn’t give him my whole life and my happiness?

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