My name is Pawel, I work in one of Warsaw hospital. I was grown up in catholic family, but all the time i
felt lack of something in my faith. For years I thought that my faith is weak, without any deep relation
with God. I didn’t have happiness in what I do, despite that I was in liturgy service, first as altar boy, later
as lector. After coming to Warsaw for studies I had hope that I will find community which will help me to
find happiness in my faith. I tried different communities, but I didn’t find any. I lost my happiness, I get
depression. I had hope that participate in WYD will change it. I wanted to be volunteer in Parish of St.
Jacob in Warsaw. Preparations for this event didn’t give me any chance for change of my situation. Week
before Days in Dioceses i get information that I have aneurism in my brain. At those moment I thought to
give up. I thought even about suicide. But finally I stayed as volunteer. First and second day I took people
from airport. Second day I took group of 30 people of Shalom community members from Israel. In city
bus youths took out their instruments and started to sing and dance. I didn’t know what should I do, I
felt a bit ashamed about this situation. I wanted to run away and not back. But God had another plan.
With the same group I walked for next 2 days. Their happiness started to have influence on me. I saw
real happiness of faith, something which I always looked for. As more people from Shalom I met as more
happiness was in me. I forgot about my problems. It was something which I have never felt in Poland, I
have never saw such happiness of evangelisation, such devoting for mission. I was with this people on
street evangelisation and I saw how they can take people for God! After Days in Dioceses I gone to
Cracow, where every afternoon I spent with Shalom community. It was so beautiful experience when I
saw how they can evangelise, share their happiness with others. Because of them I noticed which way in
my life I should go, what should I be devoted for. I want to show happiness in faith like them. For 2
weeks with Shalom community I didn’t have any moments of depression, I was full of joy. It was
something which I have not felt for years. Thinking about aneurism also gave me power, because I knew
that God still want me to live, so why I shouldn’t give him my whole life and my happiness?